I am so Embarrassed and so Sorry

I am so embarrassed, and it is time for me to get right with myself. HARD STOP.

I have two email accounts, one that I check all day long on my phone, and one that I only check when I am at my computer. Therein lies the problem.

Today I saw a post from a friend who had deleted 9000 emails, and I thought that I should do that too. So there I was doing my digital housekeeping when I came across multiple heart-to-heart messages that I had not ever seen until today--one was almost two years old. I am sick.

In my defense, I have no defense.

I am humiliated and embarrassed and so sorry.

Kind, kind people who I consider friends were reaching out to me to tell me things that are important. I missed a memorial skating party for a lovely woman I knew for YEARS. I am sick. I can't go back in time and see that email and respond appropriately and with care, to her grieving husband.

I fall on my sword.

There is nothing that hurts me more than thinking that I hurt someone else. Intentionally or not, and this was not intentional. I don't want to be that person. Not ever.

Funny thing, in all this time, I had been wondering why I hadn't heard from these people because "THEY" dropped off, and it was me all along. I was the one who had missed reading these emails. I didn't do my job.

I share this with you to say, that if I missed your heart-felt message in your time of need, please know I did not see it. If you reach out to me, and you do not hear back, something went sideways. So here is my text number, 847 899 3191. If you need me, that's the fastest route to getting me.

Today I sent messages to each of those people who reached out to me, and in all this time, perhaps thought I didn't care. Not true by a long shot. Not true at all.

If you think I fell off in your time of need, I humbly, humbly apologize.

The human connection, the heart-to-heart connection is what makes this world meaningful in good times and bad. The heart connection is what continues long after our bodies leave this earth. People are attracted to you because of your heart--and what energy it contains.

I know this apology is long overdue, and I am setting the record straight. I am as imperfect as the next human being. After over twenty years of coaching people through their problems, I know this much is true--being honest with yourself in an effort to make things right is always a good starting place.

xo Coach Karen :))